ok...so for today...

AM WEIGH IN: 101

PM WEIGH IN:

DAILY INTAKE:

B- nothing.

L- black coffee. (0)

D-

S-

T-

WATER: 12345678910+

EXCERISE: 10 minutes of push-ups, crunches, and squats.

Diet Pills: none

Fasting: working on it

Binge/purge: nope

so last night i went to a party with Josh. and everyone was drinking besides me...but they got me to take half a shot of vodka chased by sweet tea. it made my mouth numb. lol...well, they also had drugs there...and everyone was doin those too. i snorted half a line. and they made me taste it before i did it and it made my tongue numb. lol...yeah, i was just fine though. but i had lots of fun with Josh. lets  just say we burnt lots of calories last night. and i'm f'n sore as crap this morning...lol. ok so this guy who lives there has 3 tanks of fish..and in one he has this awesome looking fish that are huge as F and they snap at you. well, me  and some guy started to feed the fish turkey and dog food. and they actually ate it!!!!!!!!!! i was so impressed so we had to see if the rest ate them. and then we were making the dog attack his igunia...lol...and we had to keep cleaning up the dog's mess and i tried to potty train him but he didn't like that. and we all took turns playing San Andres...lol...all i really did was blow up the cops and look for prostitutes. oh and i loved stealing the cars...that was fun. so finally we all go to sleep and me and Josh curl up on the couch and he just held me and kissed my forehead and kept apoligizing for the other night when we got in that HUGE fight and he yelled and cussed me out...(see i showed him the pillow where i cried my eyes out...my make-up residue was all over it...) but it was the sweetest thing ever! i really really want to be with this kid. he really does make me happy.

http://www.peta.org/accidentallyVegan/

yes. i'm am offically going vegan. so the things on my list to eat is surely getting smaller. i figured the less meat and fat i got out of my diet, the more i might loose. and so far, so good. plus i feel bad for the slaughtered innocent animals!

Courage is being scared to death--and saddling up anyway.

so far i have a total of 50 points.

FOR YESTERDAY:

AM WEIGH IN: 102LBS

PM WEIGH IN: ---

DAILY INTAKE:

b-nothing

l-nothing

d- 6 in. subway-290 and coke zero

s-none

t- 290

WATER: 12345678910+

EXCERISE: + 3, 2 1/2, 2, 1 1/2, 30, -

DIET PILLS: none

FASTING: no

(i'll add my points in a bit...)

AM WEIGH IN: 102LBS

PM WEIGH IN:

DAILY INTAKE:

b-green tea (0)

l-5 strawberries (45.6), 3 cubic in. honeydew melon (17.85), 1/2 chicken sandwich (216), tomato and lettuce (10)

d-sweet tea (6.02) 

s-peanut butter bar (170)

t-  465.47

WATER INTAKE: 12345678910+

EXCERISE: + 3, 2 1/2, 2, 1 1/2, 1, 30, -

DIET PILLS: 12345+

FASTING: no

BINGE/PURGE: no

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so my good friend, Brittney, MADE me eat. she basically shoved the food down my throat. she had me crying in the lunchroom in front of EVERYONE! i told her i had already eaten and i wasn't hungry...and she went and bought me a lunch. and was cool at first...but as i sat there looking at my plate...she took a fork and forced me to eat...she said if i didn't eat, she was goin to tell someone. so yep. then in my 6th period, another friend heard about what happened and told me to eat again. she said,"i know that was goin to be your ONLY meal today so i got you a peanut butter bar...and you BETTER eat it before you leave...i have to know that we fed you well today..." well, she didn't shove it down my throat, i ate it...in front of everyone...in tears. and i just laid my head down and kept crying. i HATE IT when people f'n force me to eat. IT'S MY F'N CHOICE! i don't get on to ya'll for OVER-EATING!!! gah, this makes me so mad. but this morning was good. i wore a low-cut shirt and i kept receiving compliments on my collar bones and how pretty my neck line was. but i still want it to show more...i just want it to be soooooooooooooo deep that i don't have to suck in or anything. and no matter how i sit or anything i still look good. well, i'll be back in a bit... 

<EDIT>

well, last night josh cussed me out and yelled at me and hung up on me. well, i didn't talk to him all day. he left me 5 texts saying sorry. and 2 voicemails. so i finally called him back after i had him in tears. and he said he has planned something to make up for it...so i'm really happy. well, i've been getting in the tanning bed and dieting and it's really coming together girls. i'm so excited. my boyfriend told me i should take some pics from me getting out of the tanning bed...so i did...and he said it was like a girl from maxium. lol...it made me feel soooooooooooo good. but i still want to loose a little. i can't help myself...it's like i try to stop what i'm doin but i can't. i keep on "dieting: when i know it could kill. but that doesn't matter to me...i just keep on and on...i want to have that will power...ya know? well, i'm sooooooooooo happy right now...i had a wonderful work out and i know i def burned off all those calories...

EXCERISE OUTTAKE:

434 CALORIES BURNED!

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Weight Goal Stats

Current Weight Your weight is 102 lb as of 10/26/2006. Weight Goal Your goal is to weigh 98  lb by 10/31/2006 Goal Progress You are currently 4  lb above the target weight. The deadline for your goal is 5 days away. To meet your goal you need to lose about 0.8 lb per day.

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POINTS:

5 points for calories

4 points for water

0 points for excerise

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9 points total...

AM WEIGH IN: 103LBS

PM WEIGH IN: 102LBS

DAILY INTAKE:

b-nothing

l-nothing

d- nothing

s- gum- 2pieces (10)

t- 10

WATER INTAKE:12345678910+

EXCERISE:  +3, 2 1/2, 2, 1 1/2, 30  -

DIET PILLS- 12345+

alrighty...that is my day right there.

     9 points for calories

      6 points for water

     8 points for excerise

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    23 points total

http://www.fitday.com/

Running (30-40min)- 246

10 minutes of push-ups- 64

20 minutes of sit-ups- 128

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-438 calories burned...

this is me....at 106lbs just two weeks ago.